Failure is a Phantom

In recent days The Blush Network has made some transitions.  God has been so good to us and with His goodness comes great responsibility. God has asked me to laser focus on a few things and with that call transition was necessary.

The last couple of months although exciting have been incredibly trying on this new focus of mine.  With God as my Captain, I have obeyed.

I caught myself having a difficult day a few days ago. Driving in the already hot sun of Texas to a meeting with so much on my mind that I almost cancelled.  This new transition calls for new faith, different faith.  My mind was heavy as I pulled into the parking lot of the restaurant.  I thought to myself, “I hope they don’t notice I am brain dead right now.”  The meeting concluded and the heaviness that left for an hour met me in the car.  I drove to Starbucks to meet Eddie as he was working and had a wave of fatigue fall on me.  My good intention of working failed as I looked at him and said, “I am going home.”  On the drive home my desperation for my God to move overtook me.  I began praying heavily for the Lord to remove all mountains in my way as I was following what He had asked me to do.  The red lights seem to fire up my emotion as I stewed during the pause of the break.  It got real.

In my life, my God has been my complete constant.  He knows the depth and detail of my calling and is the map to my trail.   For a moment in the car, I felt overcome with failure.  I began to beg God all the harder to move.  I know intellectually that feelings rarely represent fact, but nonetheless I felt failure.  I didn’t seem to realize my foot on the gas as I raced to get home.  It was as if my car knew I needed the encouragement that only the pages of the Bible bring.

I plopped on my bed (my haven) and opened the most sacred pages of the word of God.  I had no agenda but hearing from Him.  I opened it and my eyes rested on two verses and they were the exact word from the Lord that sprung my heart back to victorious belief.

Job 42:1-2


No purpose of YOURS CAN BE THWARTED…I seemed to repeat this phrase to myself over and over and my mind began to race with the hope these words resurrected.  NO purpose of Yours can be thwarted.  Wow.  In my meditation, that meant no purpose can be changed, none challenged, none questioned, none altered, none misrepresented, NO MATTER WHAT.

Failure is a phantom.  Sweet reader, get this today, FAILURE IS A PHANTOM.  When you look at something that God is asking you to step out and do, you literally cannot fail!  What looks like failure is literally a complete mirage brought on by satan to discourage you from completing  your responsibility.  If you look at the threat of failure in your life as a wall of smoke and you blow right through it, wouldn’t that change everything?

This is exactly what God says when He talks about the mountain:

Matthew 21:21

And Jesus answered and said to them, “Truly I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but even if you say to this mountain, ‘Be taken up and cast into the sea,’ it will happen.

When you look at failure as a Phantom, you CAN say MOUNTAIN MOVE and it WILL obey you.

About five minutes after reading that passage of scripture my phone rang and on the other end was great news which was exactly what I had been praying for.  After I got off the phone, I refreshed my email and in my inbox was good news EXACTLY what I had been praying about.

Failure is a Phantom, when God asks you to complete a task. Command that mountain to move and it will obey.

As it was in the days of Noah, my recap on the movie Noah.

Matthew 24:37

For the coming of the Son of Man will be just like the days of Noah…

I walked in late to the media premiere for the movie Noah.  I had no idea that they were waiting on me to start the movie.  Opppsssss. They checked with Paramount and ok’d my entrance to the movie. I sat with my new Co-host of Power Talk Rick and we talked with a nervous energy excited to see what all the fuss was about.

There is nothing I love more than seeing the power of my amazing God on display.  I couldn’t wait to see His glory fill the movie theatre in theatrical effects that only the money from Hollywood can bring.  I was particularly interested in the movie Noah because I studied at length his life in the fall as Noah and the flood is the first account of faith recorded in the Bible.  I studied it backwards and forwards and knew little details that only comes with hours of searching for the answers that are hidden between the words of the most precious Bible.  Last fall, I sat amazed at the details that had been omitted from the story that I have heard for almost thirty – four years.  Details that if truly revealed would leave you speechless as it did me for almost an entire day in October.

The lights dimmed almost immediately as I took my seat.  And it began…the first scene was a picture with text running through it as if to set you up for the story you were getting ready to watch.  I knew then, I was gonna have a tough time with this movie.  Why, you ask?  It clearly communicates that demons were cast out of heaven and become rock monsters. That’s right, rock monsters… I had to take a deep breath as I was only 3.5 minutes deep in the 2 hour action packed thriller.  The story unfolded as if man was the great enemy, which might I say, is true.

Here it is in scripture:

Genesis 6:5

Then the Lord saw that the wickedness of man was great on the earth, and that every intent of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually. The Lord was sorry that He had made man on the earth, and He was grieved in His heart. The Lord said, “I will blot out man whom I have created from the face of the land, from man to animals to creeping things and to birds of the sky; for I am sorry that I have made them.” But Noah found favor in the eyes of the Lord.

In the days of Noah, “Every intent of the thoughts of his heart was ONLY evil continually.”  This to me is an incredible statement.  I might say that the movie did give a good depiction of the wickedness of man kind throughout. The movie portrayed Noah as having a dream that God was going to destroy the earth with water, the text in the Bible says that God spoke to Him and told Him…things I notice due to my study.  I began to understand that this movie was gonna make me mad when Noah enlisted the demon rock monsters for help in making the ark.  Yep – the demons helped Noah and his family build the ark, because of course there was a good demon.  From that point on, almost nothing matched the biblical description of the account of Noah except for there was rain, and ark and at the end there is a scene where Noah was drunk.  The movie even puts Cain on the ark, there is a huge blood bath and of course Noah, the hero kills him.

If you are going to this movie and know and have studied the scriptural account of the story of Noah found in Genesis, you will leave mad.  The name of my great God was never mentioned…He is referred to as the “Creator”.  Only His wrath is portrayed, not His love.

If you are going for pure entertainment and really don’t care about the Bible, you might like the movie…BUT here is where I have the problem.  Hollywood has drawn conclusions and added in details to an account that is most sacred to my faith.  This was the first act of faith mentioned in the pages of the Bible.  One that if thought about will leave someone speechless.  A man believed God so entirely that he built a HUGE boat to save every living type of thing.  The act of faith is tremendous, but not more tremendous that a merciful God that could have destroyed everything and decided to save some. Unfortunately, people will believe that there were rock demons that help build the ark and that Cain was actually on the ark.  Don’t forget the fact the Noah almost killed his own grandchildren on the ark…oh my, I could go on and on.

Let me end with this, Gods word is the most exciting book written. I am not surprised Hollywood wanted to do a movie over the story of Noah, because it is mind blowing, but let me challenge you there are thousands of other stories that are just as exciting in the pages of the Word.  Not only that, there are answers to every need you have.  The Bible changed my life and if read, will change yours too.  I have rarely heard someone complain after truly digging in to pages of scripture, more often then not, they are transformed.

Open this present early – Merry Christmas


I tried not to focus on the pain I was feeling emotionally as I broke the news to my children that day this past October that the birthmother that we had been matched with was not pregnant.  Feeling emotions that I didn’t expect to feel in the process of adoption seemed to engulf me the weeks leading up to confirming that our birthmother that was carrying the twins we were to adopt at the beginning of 2014 was a scammer. Through an unrest in my spirit, which was brought on by the Lord, I was the one who uncovered the lies of this woman and finally caught her red-handed. There we sat, just a few weeks later staring at my children’s faces who were ecstatic about the idea of welcoming two other little lives into our home.  My children, who in an instant would be kind to anyone and if they knew of a hurting heart, would help it, now stared at be blankly as the evil of this world had stung them.  We sat in silence as the information was processed by my two little treasures.  In as mild a manner as possible Eddie and I explained what had happened. Their eyes dropped as they realized the finality and reality of the situation.  As their mother, I wanted to shoulder the disappointment that they were feeling, I wanted to be the one that felt the pain in their place. But there I sat, after waiting almost a year for the news to be matched, we were in an unpredictable situation.

My mind has wrestled with how to manage such a grievance against humanity.  How can an individual feel it okay to play deviously with the emotions of a family that desperately wants to love their child. This particular woman wasn’t pregnant at all and had lied to all parties included to a point of even producing fake documents. Through this battle against injustice God in His amazing way gave me the gift of a word.  On days that the pain seared, He seemed to drop a this word in my spirit to encourage my heart. This word cannot be stolen.  It cannot become illegal.  It is the greatest of gifts that our God has given us through His Son, Jesus.  The word is hope.

Hope.  The word alone baffles the soul that has been abused by the world, and yet it remains. This past month hope has been the theme of my thoughts. Hope is the prerequisite to faith.  If you can hope you can have faith and if faith is present so is belief. You literally cannot have faith without first daring to hope that something is possible.  In our world filled with Miley Syrus’s who dance simulating sex with a Santa Claus and the attack on freedom of speech brought on by the circumstances with Phil Robertson and Duck Dynasty it is comforting to know that NO ONE can steal my hope.  My hope in my future is secure because of my Jesus being born in the most destitute of circumstances to be slain on a cross for me.  It is concrete. In the fleeting  circumstances that attempt to act as a thief and steal our hope, they cannot if we do not let them.


  1. Hope against Hope – Abraham when considering the age of himself and Sara hoped anyway.  Why?  Because He had a solemn promise from God Himself. His body or his age couldn’t dictate what God had already governed.  Romans 4:18a, In hope against hope he believed.  He knew (Rom. 4:17) God gives life to the dead and calls into being that which does not exist.  Abraham didn’t hope in his circumstances or he would have been completely depressed not seeing any possibility of a child, rather he hoped in God the Author of impossibility.
  2. Hope does not disappoint – Romans 5:5 And hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.  We cannot be disappointed when we utilize the overwhelming strength and love of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit guides, it instructs, it strengthens and encourages.  Because of the gift of the Holy Spirit we have hope and help. When relying on His prompting and His guidance through things God has asked us to do we are ensured of a favorable end.  If God has asked us to do something, the Spirit will enable us clear direction on how to do it.  Hope will never disappoint when we are sensitive to the Spirit of God.
  3. Faith is hope when it is believed – Hebrews 11:1, Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for the conviction of things not seen. If we dare to hope, then we can dare to believe. Faith can start the moment we develop hope.  Many people stop at hope and faith never develop because of hard circumstances or disappointments. Faith springs up when hope is challenged and unaltered. No one can take it from you, it’s a choice to believe.

This year, My family was desperately needing the whimsical lightheartedness this season brings.  I have found every excuse possible to watch a Christmas movie or drink some hot chocolate. Knowing that my God loved me so much to send His Son through Mary to give me eternal hope this season has encouraged me richly.

Hope is the gift that He has given you as well.  Drink of the blessing of it today and understand that it is concrete in its nature and no one can remove it from you.

Merry Christmas.  I pray God enriches your idea of hope.

Isaiah 9:6

For a child will be born to us, a son will be given to us; And the government will rest on His shoulders; And His name will be called WONDERFUL COUNSELOR, MIGHTY GOD, ETERNAL FATHER, PRINCE OF PEACE.

Be thankful or be turned into a beast

Yesterday, I stepped out of my car in Indiana and held my breath as the freezing cold air hit me like a right hook.  I walked as fast as I could with my sister to the grocery store door that stood there waiting for us to enter the warm air.  We were headed to the store again to buy cans of pumpkin for pumpkin bread that would undoubtably fill my entire parents home with an intoxicating smell. I shook as I entered the grocery store to try regain body heat.  Rushing to the aisle of pumpkin with my mom and sister could only mean one thing, “Carey cry fest 2013” was just around the corner. This family tradition will live on far past the lives of my family that partake in it now, because of the culture that we are instilling in the generation after us.  I have to give tradition credit to my mom who forced us to start it when I was a young girl.  “Carey cry fest” is defined by its name.  We begin each year after Thanksgiving or Christmas dinner whichever holiday has drawn my entire family and spend time verbalizing what we are thankful for in each person from the entire previous year. Almost before we begin speaking we begin crying, hence the name.  Some years are more emotional than others.  The year my dad successfully came through quadruple bypass surgery was extra emotional and the year I launched The Blush Network was intense. The cry fest is set aside because we choose to take a couple hours to pause each year as a unit and talk about what God has done in each of our lives.  Every year He champions the impossible. God is the star of the show and we worship Him.

There is no doubt in my mind where my blessings this Thanksgiving have originated.  I am not under any illusion that I created the blessings for myself, but twenty years ago my thought process was very different.  I never used to enjoy the “Carey cry fest.” I felt it was a waste of time.  I participated of course, but what my mouth said was very different then what I believed.  I was blind to all that God had done for me and in some way believed that I had just been lucky or that I had something to do with it.

I didn’t think King Nebuchadnezzar and I had anything in common, but it turns out we do. He stuck out to me as I was studying thanksgiving a short while back.  We don’t think of him as a likely man to partake in thanksgiving to our God, but he did.

Because of Nebuchadnezzar’s pride God warned him through a dream that was interpreted by Daniel that if he didn’t change his mind would be taken from him and he would begin to act like one of the cattle.  He literally would live with the cattle and eat with them. Daniel warned Neb to change his ways so the dream wouldn’t come true, but Neb didn’t listen. Twelve months later he was walking on his roof on the palace of Babylon and said this:

Dan. 4:30b

Is this not Babylon the great, which I myself have build as a royal residence by the might of my power and for the glory of my majesty.

Neb’s comments showed his heart, it was prideful and full of himself.  The bible says that immediately he was driven away from man and hung out with the cattle for seven years. He ate grass, his hair grew out crazy and his nails grew as long as birds claws.

Dan. 4:34

But at the end of that period, I, Nebuchadnezzar, raised my eyes toward heaven and my reason returned to me, and I blessed the most high and praised and honored Him who lives forever; For His dominion is an everlasting dominion, and His kingdom endures from generation to generation. All the inhabitants of the earth are accounted as nothing, But He does according to His will in the host of heaven and among the inhabitants of earth; and NO ONE CAN WARD OFF HIS HAND or say to Him, “What have you done?”

When Nebuchadnezzar came out of those seven years of trial he immediately thanked the Lord. He understood how much He has to be thankful for and he placed God in His heart as his King.

Seven years of severe trial in my life did the same thing.  I will never be the same.  It was then began to call on the Lord for help.  It was then that I began to understand His love.  It was then that my heart changed and now and forever, I will praise and thank God alone for His mercy, blessing and grace in my life. It is when God brings us through a trial that we find our opinion toward Him has changed and the trial make sense.  Authentic love and thanksgiving for our God is developed in the desert land of trial. It is when we face the impossible task of our circumstances that we recognize our valiant Warrior who fights on our behalf. I wonder this year what have you been through? This thanksgiving take some time to have your own “cry fest.” King Nebuchadnezzar had one and I have one each year.

Daniel 4:37

Now I, Nebuchadnezzar, praise, exalt and honor the King of heaven, for all His works are true and His ways just, and He is able to humble those who walk in pride.

I couldn’t end this blog without saying that I am so thankful for you.  I have no words to tell you what each of you mean to me.  Your support over the years for The Blush Network and myself amazes me.  Thank you. This thanksgiving you will be mentioned in “Carey cry fest” because God has used each of you in my life. Please know your encouragement over the years has fueled the flame to keep at it!  I adore you, I have prayed for you and I am challenged because of you!

Autumn Miles